again

what is ruling me every second ? 

Who gave me every beat of my heart and every breath I take.. 

oh Lord, I am too weak to follow you and I belong so much to this secular world, 

I don't even know how to call you and pray about it, 

I have shamed you so much behind people, they don't know how sinful and miserable I am, 

yet you know, who I am, how weak I am, and you know I'm such a liar, I call you with lips but heart, 

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my short praise which comes out from my mouth several times a day, are lies I know, 

I complain about my circumstances, my plan and etc, 

but I don't seek you Lord, and I know it will destroy me slowly, again, Sin has a such a mighty power when I don't trust you 

no one can hear me, no one can understand me, but you , 

I'm blind, I think sometimes I can do things without you, I think my life is my life, I the owner of my life, 

I've forgotten many things you revealed in my life, I just faded them away on purpose, because I love so much being in this world, 

I search what other people search, many times, my setpoint  is guided by this world, 

I know the truth and love will satisfy me the most, no other things except the presence of you will make me happy 

so I boldly ask you again, please come and take me back to the right track, that's what you're supposed to do, 

and I ... humbly ask you the strength, to obey you, your word

hope I can rely on the every second of chance to sin, against you,